Problems

I have been thinking, and confused.

I love my job, I love my boy friend. Actually, both has got nothing in common, but both also tied together with each other. Fuck, I don't know how should I put this. I don't know how should I relate it. I have got a lot to blog about but I really do not know how to put my feelings into words.

Well, it all started when I know my boy friend. I met him from Friendster. I then met up with him at his cousin's place.

Took him to Genting that day, and then brought him home. Well, what happened next really changed me, perhaps my boy friend as well.

I went to his birthday, of course as his boyfriend I would like to be beside him all the time, but I made a mistake, a pretty fatal one. You see, his family do not know that he is a homosexual, perhaps they had a hint but what I did just made them believe that my boy friend is one.

During his birthday party, when he was spending time with his friends, I gave him a hug, in fact I think I hugged him almost most of the time. This is being seen by my boy friend's parents, which is bad. Towards his friends, my boy friend is open about him being a gay.

We went out for quite some time already, and am still going out. He haven had his foreskin totally off his penile head, I forgot what's the term for that. I borrowed him the cyberskin butt that I have got last time, and bought him a tube of KY Jelly to complement with that.

Well, it started like this. He went out with Midvalley with his god brother, something that I am not totally comfortable with, but as a relationship, I should have trust in him and should not control him too much. I should give him some personal space, to know some new people and this kinda things.

Anyways, when he was out that faithful night, his parents went over his belongings. They found the cyberskin and the KY Jelly.

That same day, I did not know that my boy friend was with his god brother. Since we had friend finder, I did a search on him and then he text me and told me that he is in Midvalley. I assumed that he was with his parents. It was something about going home himself that I realized that he was not with his parents. I was so short of cash that time, but I just had to go find him and send him back.

Sent him back near his house, and he walked in. I do not want to drop him in front of his house in fear of his parents. When I was back, I got a phone call from his dad asking me if it was me that sent him back. His dad questioned me about why did I not drop him in front of the house, perhaps trying to create a conversation before telling me that his mother found the "toys".

My boy friend lost his handfone once, his friend returned it to him. I don't care as long as the phone is not totally lost. Just a week or so, he lost the phone again, this time with no chance of getting it back because he lost it in a public place.

I am pretty frustrated that day, because of some unforeseen events, I did not scold him. I know its not his fault or something, just some carelessness, and one should not be blamed for being careless.

It has been quite some time since we see each other. Mainly because of the restrain that his parents put on him.

Yesterday, my boy friend called me telling me that his mother broke his piggy bank that his friends got for him for his birthday, and that was for silly little things. Could not wake up on time for school. I mean what the fuck, don't we all overslept sometimes?

My boy friend made something for me, keeping it a secret. It was a sweater. When he went home yesterday, he found a torn sweater, and the broken piggy bank is not even being cleared up.

I somehow feel responsible for this, for everything, should I just leave my boy friend, or should I continue be with him? I can't fucking think!

Chow Kit Road

Thats it. I tell you.

Nothing to do yesterday, drove around KL and my pessanger thought of dropping by a place in Chow Kit.

We went around the place for a few times, saw some really nice chiqs there. Pretty and nice chiqs.

Then this indian guy stopped us, telling us that he has got some really nice chiqs, for 50 bucks. We thought, why not. Lets try.

Parked the car by the site of the road, went inside and take a look at the girls. Not really my type but my friend wants to try out. Okay then. 50 bucks for the girl and 10 for the room.

I did not feel right then. I was there for a massage, but that massage really is not worth the money. She asked me to sit in the position that I supposed is to fuck her. Asked me to get myself hard. I thought she was supposed to give me a blowjob? Doesn't seem like it. From that time onwards it seems that we have been conned.

I went out of the room, the guy that is guarding the door did not bother about me at first. Then someone yelled out on his walking, nothing I can reconise and I did not give a shit about it. He then asked me to move outside giving the excuse that there is a police raid.

I went to the car, the first thing I noticed is that my drawer is open. I do not remember it being opened when I left the car. I then saw my coin box is empty, Then I know that the car has been broken into. My friend came out from the place telling me that he lost his phone.

I told him not to go back to get the phone and leave the place. There are many people inside there that look like thugs. Who else would operate this kind of place if not thugs? He went ahead to get what he wants, at least the memory card of his phone.

He went back in for quite some time. I was dead worried. I tried calling to his phone and it was still ringing. After a while it stopped indicating that the phone has been switched off. I waited a while more, and tried calling a few friends of us just in case something happen.

He came back out, I was relieved that he is okay.

It seems that there is a secret passage that the people use to access the clothing. The place where the prostitutes asked us to put. Perhaps a trap door.

As for my car, they used something to restrict the sensors, so that it will not trigger the alarm system. I felt good luck that I did not bring my laptop out. Also that I have not lost much except for the things in my car. I would be dreaded if I have lost my 2 days old phone.

The only difference is why I am not being targeted is because I did not choose to fuck the girl. No wonder she was talking all by herself.

Sigh.

Ah Chung and his BF

I have met Ah Chung once, chatted with him both in IRC and on the phone. Once he asked me to meet up with him in Kepong, I said okay. He wanted me to fetch his new found boy friend as well. I thought it should be okay since his boy friend is staying near me.

His boy friend is about 16 or 17 years old, no longer study and work as a VCD seller. Chung likes those who has the "ah beng" look, or some call it "lala jai" look.

So I thought this boy friend of his must be really cute since I have met some really cute lala jais. One of the worst thing that he did is, giving me stupid road directions. I ended up in Bukit Jalil before being able to make a U-Turn.

That aside, he could have just tell me the area name "correctly" and I could have just use another shorter route!

My first impression when I looked at him, he's one of the worst kid that I have ever seen, with his hair dangling in front of his face, the way he dress, and the way he looked. I really regret promising Ah Chung to fetch him.

On the way to Kepong, I used the Old Klang Road route. Because it was always after working hours, the road was jam packed with cars. I noticed that my car water temperature went up pretty high and I told him that I wanted the car to take a break.

It all went well, we meet up with Chung, who eventually ended up at the wrong place. You see, there were 2 KFC in that area and he went to the smaller one.

I sent them back after they had their dinner. On the way back, I jokingly touched Ah Chung's lap teasing him, while his boy friend was in the car. Before he got his boy friend, I was always flirting with him, wanted to suck him and things like that. That time, I thought his boy friend would not mind, because to me its just a normal touch.

Chung did not talk to me ever since, until about 1 year after the incident.

We meet up again at the same place, I told him that I am horny and I guess he was also horny and he wanted me to go over to his place. Though he do not have a place for sex, but we did it in the car anyways, at the railway station's car park.

He sucked me for quite a bit, eventually I wanted to fuck him but he just decline me saying that he's tired and theres no place and things. I sucked him a while and decided that I want him to fuck me instead, I sat on it. Because the lack of lubrication, it did not went in all the way and it was quite painful, both of us call it a day.

I managed to find out that he had broken up with his boy friend, and also know that he previously was in love with Kelvin from Ipoh, which I felt surprised. He even told me that, it was Kelvin's boy friend, Shinya that broke them up.

At the same time, I also managed to find out that Kelvin also had been together with Melvin from Selayang, a cute boy that I really like hugging and sucking.


** Ah Beng, Asian Chinese, often Chinese educated with poor English understanding. Always appear with dyed hair with weird colors, often gold or neon. Some goes along with huge ear rings and nose rings.

Jenn

Met Jien on IRC one fine night on my crusade looking for sex online.

I do not know why, but I just love having sex with total strangers, be it he is a cutie or not.

I saw Jien's faceparty, thought that he is a little too old for me at first when he told me his age. Then again, his picture looked young and I thought why not give it a try. I kind of fall in love with him the moment I saw his picture actually.

We chatted for a bit arranging the meet up point and then I make my way to Setapak where he stays. Waited for a while for him to show up and I guess the wait was worth it to meet such a cutie.

We talked a lot during the trip home to Subang, I think it was the longest conversation I had with someone that I brought home.

I stripped him first, he's got a almost the same size dick as mine, which I enjoy sucking it. Thought that his pubic hair is a little too much for my liking, but for him I guess it was okay. He sucked me quite a while too.

I love the part where he was kissing me. There is one part where I asked him if he wants a fuck, he actually said okay. I was quite reluctant to fuck him at first because he was too cute. Another part of me wanted to penetrate him badly, confused confused.

I got him from the back, it was a pretty easy in, he was quite loose but I think it was okay because we both are enjoying ourselves. He turned me over and sat on it, at a point where I am almost ejaculating and I push him over to another position.

I shot my cum inside him.

At a moment of time, when he was on top of me kissing me, I opened up my eyes and I thought I say Jason, the way Jien looked like in the dark, really mimic Jason. I really imagined myself making love with Jason, every inch of meat that I have penetrated. I am an asshole or what?

Kelvin and shinya

Went to the night market to join Alan and his girl friend. There were a boy holding shih tzu puppy.

I did not notice who is that boy as my view was blocked for a bit. To my disgust it was Shinya when I noticed another boy standing beside him was Kelvin. That kiddo that was holding the puppy, is Shinya

Now, why do I hate Kelvin that much?

I met Kelvin when he was about 17 or 18 years old. When he come to KL, he will come look for me, perhaps for sex, or just a company. We fucked a few times and he claimed that I was the first person to have fucked him.

I don't like Kelvin at all, call me cruel but I treat him strictly as my sex partner, someone for me to fuck and someone that sucks me. I don't remember myself sucking him, but I did remember asking him to fuck me but it did not go well, I rejected him when he was almost in.

One thing that I don't like about him is when he is over at my place. I would not mind if he would want to use the washroom to wash up, but does he need to go to the washroom naked? What if my parents came out from their room and see a naked boy with his dick sticking out of his body?

I hinted him, it went better, he used a towel the next time he came over, but what's the use when the tower clearly shows a dick sticking out from it? Perhaps that is what he do when he is back home, definitely not fine to me.

I like to force him to suck me. Often he just give it a lick, and that's it. I try anything to make my dick stuck inside his mouth, often shoving it in deep into his mouth. It was fun.

I like it the most when I force myself to fuck him. Not that he did not agree about the fuck, but about the pain of it. I always fuck him as hard and as rough as I want, there is no love with him, just lust and pure lust only.

After I am done, he would jack himself off. Lame.

Ah Chung told me that he had couple with Kelvin before. I remember Kelvin said something about having a cute boy from Selayang when I asked him over for one day.

A lot of bad things were being told to be about Ah Chung. I found out that Kelvin offer sex to people who are willing to fetch him around town. That never happened to me, I guess he must have been addicted to being fucked by me.

Shinya on the other hand, had broken up Ah Chung and his lala boy friend. Though I do not like him that much, I did try approaching him, hopefully able to fuck him and then let news spread back to his boy friend, Kelvin. That would be fun.

A boy

I have met this boy online. I thought that the picture that he posted in his Friendster was real. It turned out not.

It was a Saturday, I had nothing to do. The bo called me to see if I want to go over to his place. I went over to his relative's house to fetch him. The road direction given by his cousin sister is as confusing as Chung's boyfriend, which I will tell later.

The boy actually stays at Serdang. When he invited me over, it was actually his relative's house.

I had a tough time looking for his place, after asking some road directions from a nearby petrol station, I had a good laugh. Instead of taking me straight to the place, his cousin sister took for a merry go round.

Sent his cousin sister to OUG, then we decided to have some dinner, since I had not had my dinner. We ended up in Mien Tien in Taman Mayang, I ordered a jumbo honeydew, and he had a teh peng (milk tea).

I ordered Wan Ton Mee and he ordered a small dish of Hong Kong chee cheong fun. He asked me a funny question, when he saw my drink. He thought I wanted to share with him, which I really do not mind.

After we finished our dinner, we were driving around thinking where to go. Wanted to head over to Kuala Selangor to watch fire-flies but I do not know how to get there. We then decided to hang out at Genting, for some cool air after a hot day.

It was a pleasant and slow drive. We enjoyed the ride none the less, trying to keep my speed to the speed limit.

I remember myself keep on touching him, hugging him all over. He did not resist. We walked around Genting and came down 2 hours later. Even though I think it was a short visit, but I guess the time spent there is worth it. On the way down, I remember the car sliding a few times due to the heavy rain, this is when I stopped a few times and tried to convince Kester to let me blow him. He tasted so sweet.

He changed his jeans to a short pants, he was wearing a bikini briefs. When I asked him if he is expecting something to happened, he sort of kept quiet, but he did not deny the fact that he wore it to show me, how cute. I can't remember who asked who but we became boy friends.

After we both shower, I gave him another blowjob, he sort of hinted me that it is okay for me to make love to him, fucking him slowly from the back.

He jacked off while I was fucking him, I can feel his tight anus tensed up. I bend down and lick the rest of cum up.

We then hugged and went to bed.